Behind The Name
A note from the founder and owner of Ellie and Piper Party Boutique
I’ve been too afraid of sharing this because I didn’t want to be judged for my story. BUT... NEW YEAR, NO FEAR is my motto for 2019, so here we go!
I’m Tina and I’m one of the many moms who have suffered loss during pregnancy (for me, two times). In 2016, I was pregnant 3 times. I still remember taking a pregnancy test while on vacation at a hotel in Santa Barbara, California and the joy I felt as my husband ran around the room jumping up and down screaming, “YESSS! I’m going to be a dad!”
We shared the news with our family, even though it was still so early only to tell them a couple of months later that we had lost our baby. The disappointment and grief that entailed was heart heavy and brought extreme sadness. Even writing this years later brings back the flood of emotions that I don’t often like to revisit. I want to say the second time around, as difficult as it was then, passed a little easier because I didn’t have high expectations. I had lost hope of a chance at motherhood. Even during the third full term pregnancy, I suffered a lot of anxiety and couldn’t fully enjoy my pregnancy because I was always afraid the nightmare would repeat itself.
It was heartbreaking and traumatic. It left me feeling vulnerable and hopeless and wondering what I ever did wrong for this to happen or why my body was failing me. But I’m not here asking for pity or sympathy because I wouldn’t have my sweet daughter to hold now if those miscarriages didn’t happen. I’m a firm believer that everything happens for a reason and God has a plan for our family. My daughter is my pride and joy and I love her with every fiber of my being because she’s my miracle rainbow baby.
I’m sharing my story because 1) I want other wishful mommies-to-be who may be suffering in silence to know that they are not alone and 2) I don’t want my unborn babies’ memories to be lost with time. Ellie and Piper is a beautiful memorial tribute for the two special little angels that I will meet again one day and when I formed this company, I had the intention of celebrating them every single day because in my mind, I am a mother of three.
Thank you for supporting our small business by inviting us into your home and for celebrating life with Ellie and Piper.